|Tuesday, December 12th, 2006|
whyyyyyyy so wanting the comfort of pick-up trucks and big open spaces on summer nights
too much country for my own good, no doubt about it
|Monday, December 11th, 2006|
at least they have manners
maybe god created me to fall for people that are as far away from me as ideologically possible, then slowly win them over with my numerous charms and christian values and blonde hair
sounds like a pain in the ass. id rather fall for someone that agrees with me MILITANTLY.
|Sunday, December 10th, 2006|
from the south loooooove their zobo
|Saturday, November 11th, 2006|
the only thing i want right now is for my stomach to stop hurting so horribly horribly badly.
|Friday, November 10th, 2006|
|i thank god for ani
I am letting the telephone ring
cause I don't want to know why
now what could I possibly have to say?
she is someone I don't even know
and all the things that you've given to me
I see now were simply reparations
they were gifts of your guilt
they were my preparation
I know I should be mature
keep my feet on the floor
but for some reason,
I just don't want them anymore
I know this shouldn't be important
compared to you and I
but I can still hear my questions
and I can still hear you
I can still hear you lie
now vicariously I have her in me
I want to peel off my skin
let the water wash in
you always said that I was hiding
that I was hiding from you
BUT YOU ARE CAPABLE OF THINGS THAT I COULD NOT DO
YOU ARE CAPABLE OF THINGS THAT I COULD NOT DO
I remember how you pretended
how you pretended to touch me
I remember how I couldn't bring myself to believe
I remember wondering,
what was wrong
what was wrong
how could I be so naive
how could I be so naive?
|Tuesday, July 25th, 2006|
|today was not the best day
please dont talk about it in your malnutrition presentations when im stuck in an auditorium and cant leave without being obvious and humiliated and PANICK'd. goddammit.
|Friday, July 21st, 2006|
|late nights and bad reception
sometimes i really dont know what someone said, and sometimes i have no idea what i would say in response. bitches.
|Thursday, July 13th, 2006|
|Tuesday, June 13th, 2006|
i cant decide if im sick to my stomach or just disgusted.
|Sunday, March 5th, 2006|
are awesome for helping you reach self-destructive goals. HEY who needs OCD anyway when you have MOMS?!?!?!?!
whatever im going on a run for EVER ALONE and she can eat poop.
|Saturday, February 25th, 2006|
|Wednesday, February 22nd, 2006|
heres the plan: finishing this project, baking a shit ton of stuff for kick coke, going into hiding under my covers and not coming out ever. except to give away the baked goods tomorrow so that maybe someone likes me again.
i must enjoy being disliked because i sure am good at fucking things up with people, especially those i care about the most.
maybe the groundwater in India is fond of me?
|Saturday, February 18th, 2006|
|Monday, February 13th, 2006|
|Saturday, February 11th, 2006|
|Sunday, February 5th, 2006|
yeah whatever. total low. slept in my ex's bed last night without him in it watching mice scamper around in that dirtyoldlovely barn. woke up at 6:30. went to church still drunk at 8. came home at 9 and here i am all ready to go to sleep.
conclusion: im done with all of this shit. all i want to do is work and sleep. everything else can fucking explode.
im not taking the god damn prozac anymore. i cant concentrate on getting skinny.
|Saturday, February 4th, 2006|
last night blasted the mother fucking malaise out of the water.
god sometimes im happy.
today i tutored a bunch of kids from chester. theyre fabulous and things are fabulous. i realize this is a manic moment but OH THE FUCK WELL. its nice all the same. and good parties tonight with good people even if not THE good person.
|Wednesday, February 1st, 2006|
|Tuesday, January 31st, 2006|
|Monday, January 30th, 2006|